When anyone tells me they have trust issues, I always respond with, “I will trust anyone until they give me a reason not to.” But I realized today that is just not true. There is a correlation between trust and truth, trust and willingness, trust and accepting help, trust and honesty, trust and empathy, and trust and our deep-rooted fears.

I can trust someone with my life, yet still be unwilling to take their advice. I can trust and yet defend myself against unpleasant truths. The reason why my recovery program works is because the steps required me to build trust where I didn't know it was missing.

There's a whole new level of trust that I've been introduced to as a disabled stroke survivor. This experience has required me to question my long-standing belief that I know what's best for me and trust in my caregiver. Over the past year I have worked very hard at being defiant toward the truth that resulted from my stroke. This defiance makes it more difficult for my caregiver to protect me against myself.

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I wanted to work at NASA when I grew up. I also wanted to be an actress. I wanted to be rich and never have to worry about money. I left for college to be a math major because my math teacher in high school told me I’d never make it. One of my peers in class told me I should stick to punching numbers in a calculator because that’s what I do best.

The more criticisms I heard, the more I believed them. Why try when I believed I couldn’t. So, I set out on a fight, but it was against myself, and it lasted 30 years. Drinking turned up the volume of that negative self-talk, and I stuck with doing things that I was good at already. I stopped reaching up and started digging down.

I didn’t end up at NASA, and I’m not an actress, although I exceed in being dramatic. I’m not rich, but I still tell my kids what I’m going to do when I am. 😂 I don’t regret the past, nor wish to shut the door on it, because without everything happening just as it did, I wouldn’t be right where I am. After all, it could ‘a me been me stranded in space for five months.

My obsession with alcohol used to speak to me every day. Now, gratitude has taken its place.

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Humor is the coming together of contradictions. My capacity for self-deception in my drinking days is something that today I can look back at and laugh. But it has taken years of healing to be able to see I was a walking paradox. The thing that I thought was helping me was deeply harming me.

In the same respect. I became really good at making excuses: “I’d love to BUT…”. I was a serious ‘BUT’ GAL. ‘But’ was a way I could isolate myself, sit in my own misery, and block anyone helping me. Yet, how easy was it for me to complain of loneliness?

And sobriety we tend to look back look at these contradictions and laugh at ourselves. I practice being a ‘yes’ person today to counteract my ‘but’ syndrome.

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